What in the hell am I going to do with this blog? I think I am coming up on my three year anniversary and have absolutely no readership (except if I talk about Beyonce) and no commenters. I was thinking about coming out the blog closet and posting under my own identity; but I like the idea of being as raunchy as I want without repercussions. I don’t think it would matter if came out anyway because even the people I told about my blog don’t read it.
I have said this before but moving forward I want to start posting something every day even it just a ‘song of the day’. I could lower myself and talk about celebrities everyday but in general I don’t give a fuck; if I do talk about celebs it will be because I feel like it. That being said:

Happy Anniversary Anti-Jemima.com!

I haven’t been blogging this month much but I got seriously depressed all of a sudden. I am not sure what is exactly going on with me but I feel like its something physical. Like I really feel like shit, I believe it’s hormonal because I get like this from time to time around my period. I think I am exacerbating my hormonal problems with rough sex, weed, and alcohol. Anyway I feel pretty hopeless right now but don’t be worried because I have felt like this before and in general I just wait it out. Also I am DRANKIN right now so the next five posts will be of questionable content, spelling, grammar, and probably depressing.

I am going to start working on my blog soon. I have had this blog for a year and I have been doing the minimal work as far as presentation and layout. My goal for the Summer is to create a Zine like I mentioned in a earlier post. I also want to host a writing contest targeted at single women. In general my motivation is super low so I am doing one thing at a time; so bear with me if posts continue to be super slow in the upcoming weeks.

I have a love hate relationship with my grandma. She raised my brother and I after my mother died and just to keep it cute I will say she was hard on me. I have always been the forgive and never forget type so now that my grandma and I are getting old I have been trying to spend more time with her. Thus I have spent the last three days with her at an Indian casino.

I am going to be not politically correct and say that, black people are never on time! Yeah I said it! The bus was supposed to leave at 10AM and we did not get rolling until noon. After paying $100 for the two night one day trip the person running the bus would not leave until we all handed over another $5. WOW, but that really happened; it seems that due to the cancellations the tour bus lady did not want to be on the hook.

Once we finally got rolling they had ‘raffles’ and games that extorted more money out of the passengers. As usual it was an older crowd and that does not bother me too much but old people talk loud and fart a lot. After the prayer they started serving booze and it got louder but most people stopped complaining about being late.

Gambling is definitely for suckers and being a part-time sucker I spent about $30 of my own money. After that though I just watched my granny and she would shoot me $10 here and there.

Anyway this story is running on so I will cut it short by saying that it is really hard for me to relax but I had a decent time. My grandma is getting old and I want to spend as much time with her as possible because you never know.

I fixed you spammers; I fixed ya good! I was so tired of logging in a seeing there were a 300 comments posted and then seeing that they were all spam. I really don’t get comments on my blog but if I do now they have to be registered users. This will prevent the unwanted spam but unfortunately will make it harder for random people that want to comment. But whatever I really like my blog it does not matter if people comment or not.