One night stands are common at least they are among the people I know. I totally was irresponsible and hooked up with a random stranger off the net. That is so unlike me but sometimes I get so tired of being so cautious. It was not worth it at all though; I risked life and limb for mediocre sex with some dude that could be a walking petri dish of STD’s. I was a little tipsy as well as usual during SF PRIDE I get so fucked up that my decision making can be a little skewed. I have met dudes off the net before and I should learn my lesson that it is never worth. The sex I imagine in my head has not come to fruition yet instead of sensual massages and meaningful cunnilingus I get drunken dudes trying to fuck me in the ass. I used protection of course but there is always the fear I have picked up some STD.
After I did the deed with the guy I got dressed in a hurry he wanted me to stay but there was no way I was going to bang him in the AM. I thought the dude was being gentleman for walking me to the bus stop but can you believe he asked me for $5 for beer!? Fuck man, but I can’t blame anyone but myself. I definitely have ‘Fuckers Remorse’ mainly because I have a shitty attitude about sex in general and I put my life at risk for nothing; I did not get what I was looking for.
This will be the last NSA hookup I have ever; I might have said that before but I really mean it! I want to feel something in my body that a stranger will never be able to give me. There is a real chance that I will never be touched with love but you can’t have it all.