I am on a country music kick which is somewhat unusual for a black chick I guess; I think this song would be considered ‘Blues Grass’ but sometimes it’s hard to tell the difference between the two. I have had this album since college and have annoyed a many of people with this musical. ‘Floyd Collins’ tells this story of an early 20th century dude that got trapped in a cave. People explored caves to find ones that could be used for tourism; apparently it’s a big industry even today.
Floyd Collins had the misfortune of being born in time when even less fucks were given and no one saved him from the cave he was trapped in and he died. Anyway I guess we have this excellent musical to remember him by and also there was movie made about it that I can’t recall.
I was flabbergasted when I saw this dude on MUNI holding his expensive IPAD like it was a Sunday paper. My first thought was that, ‘this has got to be the stupidest dude on earth’; these days in San Francisco they punch people in the mouth for Smart Phones and in general street robberies are common. After thinking about it more though, there is a good chance this guy is an undercover cop. There is no way he could be so inept and make himself such a target unless he was doing it on purpose. I remember seeing this documentary on The Discovery Channel about undercover cops that dressed themselves as tourists or drunks to see what dumb thief would bite. That has to be it right; like can anyone be this dumb?
I am at a weird place in my life; except for my son I am pretty much alone. I really don’t have to talk to adults in person except for when I go to work or walk into a store and exchange pleasantries with a clerk or something.
It feels good though; I feel as if can do anything because I am not trapped in any relationship or any career. Anyway my 33 birthday is next month so if I am going to “do something” it better be soon because I officially not young anymore.
Shut up! This is good a song.
I have been saying this for years and people think that I am crazy; ‘Black people on TV are getting lighter and lighter’. I read an article on TMZ.com that says a recent casting call for Acura stated they only wanted, “Lighter skinned Black people”. Wow! People were deflecting by saying that dark skinned people are harder to film because of lighting issues and I say, bullshit! They recreate the image of dead Brother and put him on tour but they can’t figure out how to light dark skinned people on film? This is an excuse because I see plenty of dark skinned Black people on TV when it comes to shucking and jiving. When it comes to upscale products they believe Black people are not marketable but in the interest of diversity they will find the lightest Black person they can. If you think I am just ranting think about major movies that you have seen lately with a Black woman and most likely she was biracial or Latina and the movie ‘The Help’ does not count. The image of the Black women in the country has been destroyed; Black women are depicted as loud, obnoxious, and rude (any reality TV show). Things won’t change though but it’s important to be aware not take these things personally. If I ever get enough money for a car I won’t be buying an Acura.
I am by no means religious and it has been many years since I have been to anyone’s church for any reason. I am very spiritual and suspicious and have a lot of weird ideas like most people that grow up lonely do; with all that being said here are my thoughts on the Tupac hologram and death in general: I believe your life affects your afterlife; I am not sure what happens there but I am sure there is one. Tupac had a very tumultuous life and many of his songs were about getting murdered or violence. When you die in such a way; it is important to have people positively hold your memory and work through the tragedy and this helps put your energy (soul) to rest. In Tupac’s case he died and his energy has been called upon negatively probably a billion times through his music and image. We have this flesh but we are all just energy when the flesh can no longer maintain the spirit the spirit just does not go away. Think about the saying to ‘conjure up spirits’ it’s a term that is in our common language but we never really think about. In life and death we have the ability to manifest through our emotions; when you listen to a Tupac song and you feel that ‘fight energy’ you are conjuring his spirit on a small scale.
So Tupac is definitely dead he no longer walks this earth in flesh but his spirit is still here; and working! A hologram is not real but a more tangible way to conjure up his spirit; more and more people calling upon him; he is not resting in peace. They are talking about putting his hologram/spirit on tour to spit out the same tired ass ‘gansta rap’ junk that has been recycled for the last 20 years. It is possible though that Tupac is enjoying his resurrection though if not it will be a hundred years before he can ‘rest’.
When Hulu first started it was pretty cool because you could watch first run TV shows and some old ones via the internet without the threat of the feds kicking your door in; but now their site is awful.
The hooked a lot of people in with the free version of the site which featured a lot of content but then they debuted HuluPlus a pay subscription service and a lot of their free content disappeared. I subscribed to HP and I was surprised to see that over time their ads increased even though I am paying; Ads for HP equals network TV but the worse part is the repetitiveness of the ads; how many times do I have to see this truck ad? Also HP has almost zero appealing content for children; their bread and butter seems to be first run network shows.
So I am canceling my HP subscription but I am definitely keeping my Netflix.
I use my Netflix for streaming only but it has everything I need; low cost and no ads. Netflix also has a ‘Just for Kids’ tab that has tons of content for children. Netflix does have a lot of older shows and movies but that is just fine for me because most of today’s stuff is awful; I’d watch ‘Married with Children’ over ‘Modern Family’ any day (sorry Al).
I have been reading and listening to a lot of people talk about the “The Law of Attraction” and how basically the premise is that “To do better you have to think better”; in essence that is thinking more positively.
So these days I am wondering why I never have sex and how come I don’t have a boyfriend (or a girlfriend, really!).Growing up I never had a guy say he likes me or been in a relationship with a guy. I always assumed because I was so gross and fat; this is what actually I heard from my family and friends. In school I was ostracized for my weight and hygiene for which I was not sure was really a problem; because all fat people stink right?
At the ripe old age of 32 I want to move away from this prison that has been created for me. There is no reason I have to be single for the rest of my life because I have been shit on by my family and have absorbed all the negative info that people have downloaded to me thus far.
I AM FUCKABLE!
The only problem is that I don’t wanna get used up or ran through and there are very few men that catch my interest. What I am looking for in a man is a best friend and lover but honestly I have little faith that men are useful beyond sex. My son’s father is a complete dick and I hold all men next to him and I am quite sure this type of baggage I carry is limiting.
The real problem is getting over the notion that I am not lovable and that I am too gross. How do you overcome that and is there enough positive thinking in the world to defeat my whole imbedded psyche?
Anyway I have no idea where to begin but I deserve love I am convinced and my goal is to at least try and move outside of my comfort level; a relationship has to be possible, right? Even if I never get a boyfriend and end up watching Redtube in my free time I want to say I at least tried; so I will keep you all updated.
Diggy Simmons is not 18 years old yet so I will not give him the full wrath of my ire; but I am sure sick and tired of his ‘Likes’. Facebook has a thing where your friends ‘Likes’ show up in your timeline and for the past two weeks everytime I log in Diggy has posted something stupid that hundreds of thousands of people seem to be interested in. I figured out how to stop my friends ‘Likes’ from showing up but it means I won’t see when they actually like something cool; that’s what they fucking get for clicking a button because some arrogant 17 year old tells you to.
Dr. Scott is not a MD (that I know of) but he is a Bay Area rapper that reps for the BIG GIRLS. I feel so down about my weight sometimes but his music reminds me that there is someone out there that likes it. My goal for 2012 is to start having sex with a decent dude and not the usual scumbags that I attract.